Many people have said to me lately, “I am behind on Livology,” and it inspired me to think about my own addiction to the game of catch-up.
I caught myself the past month racing to the finish line. Thoughts would run through my head like, “four more countries, and then we will have time to get caught up.” I postponed writing letters, replying to emails, mailing packages finishing projects until I got to a place where I could “catch-up.” Guess what? There was a greater lesson in store for me. There is no such place.
The place we were running to where we planned to spend six months playing “catch-up” didn’t end up being the right place for our family. I was pulling my hair out with “to-do’s” I had been saving and now it was back to the drawing board.
I started to laugh. It was a bit of a crazy lady laugh but I could not stop. I knew as we started our search for a place to lay our heads that the sooner I let go of getting “caught-up” the easier it would be. My feeling of being behind in numerous ways was my lack of presence at the moment that was before me. That is all.
No list can hold a candle to that realization and it is something I seem to need to learn over and over. Perhaps it is a lifetime of conditioning of perhaps it is knowing that if I am completely present, all the ways I once defined myself fall away and there is just the moment and that feels scary sometimes.
You can’t get behind on Livology. Living deliberately is about entering into the content when you are inspired and at whatever point you are inspired to enter. There is no sequence or ahead or behind and there is no finish line.
I never want Livology to make it on your to-do list because then it is about doing and not about being. Livology is always here and you are engaging in it when you are nowhere near a computer, every time you chose yourself and you pick the moment over minutia. It can never get done or behind because it is a way of living and being in the world every day.
